I went to visit with my Grandparents during the weekend. We had a garage sale and none of my stuff sold. Barely anyone showed up even though we placed 2 ads online and signs by the roads. I was so disappointed. I'm trying to sell my collectible horses, guitar books and one of my guitars. I think I'll have much better success putting them up for sale online. I need money, but then again who doesn't these days. I'm so tired of being poor.
I wish I never went to FMU. I wanted to make something of myself, thought I'd one day be successful. Complete utter bullshit. I knew I shouldn't have let the academic counselor talk me into going into the film program. I wanted to learn to build websites. But even that would've been a bust cause there's software out there that builds websites for you now. My degree feels worthless. It's been too long since I graduated for one thing, and second, I'd have to move to a major city like Miami or L.A. to get any real job. I don't feel like I'm too good to get a minimum wage job, that's not it at all. I'm just pissed off that I have $30k to pay off from student loans. Student Aid did nothing to help me, nor did my doctors and now it went to the collection agency. I have to dish out $100 a month now to them. Doesn't seem like much but when I'm on a fixed income, I need to count pennies. Although I'll forever be on Disability, I would still like to work. I have a real passion for film editing. I learned it by myself at FMU, something I could've done at home. I learned more at RSAD in a semester than I did at FMU for 2 years. That's just fucking pathetic. And now look where I am. NO WHERE. So a big big BIG FUCK YOU to FMU. Anddddddd here's the kicker. Oh yes, there's more!!! My credits don't register at other colleges and I'll need to retake the same courses! This is crazy. I'd love to be a vet and treat exotic pets. I've always wanted to be a vet. I don't know why I didn't pursue that instead. My Dad wanted me to go to college, and my choice to go to RSAD was a last minute thing and the only college I applied for. I decided to go and chose it cause I'm good at art. I wanted to write and illustrate books. Unfortunately, I had to leave because I became sick with schizophrenia and couldn't afford the payments. If I could go back I would choose a completely different path. But I can't and now I'll forever be in debt to the damn collection agency.
Sorry about the rant, just needed to get it all out of my system.
Oh and btw, if you're not a member on here you can always comment on my facebook. See you there...
Monday, November 28, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Welcome to My World
This must be where I introduce myself. I'm Marlene, 28 years old, live in the sunny state of Florida. Today is a breezy day, left the windows open to get some fresh air. Pig and Ziggy greatly enjoyed it.
To be honest, I haven't blogged in years. I used to be a part of Live Journal, but my friends stopped commenting and I just got bored with it all. I never thought I'd abandon my LJ. But after blogging there for a good 4 years of my life, it actually felt easy to walk away from it. I never go back and read my old posts. Not sure why. Maybe I don't want to be reminded of shit that had happened or people that were in my life. There were good and bad memories there...but now I'm rambling so I'll shut up about it. To make a boring story short, this is new to me again, so I may be extremely hesistant about what I share before settling in and having active readers.
I love a good audience. Whether it'd be performing guitar or writing in here, or hopefully sharing my children's book once it's finished and published. If I don't have an audience to share with, things go dead for me. Which is one of the reasons I stopped playing guitar. But it's mainly because I've done all that I've wanted to, and lost the passion for it. So now I consider myself retired, and venturing into a new aspect of my life which is writing.
I'm babbling, aren't I. You might be wondering who Pig and Ziggy are. I mentioned them in the first paragraph of this post.
PIG: Pig is my 4 year old guinea pig. He just got done recovering from an upper respiratory infection. Poor Piggy. He is much loved. I've had him since he was a baby. I bought him at PetSmart around Christmas time. He is tri-colored (black, white and red). He loves to give kisses and is such a sweetheart. He also loves to eat. His favorite food is cucumber. He takes it out of my hand and shakes it. Gotta kill it first, y'know ;). He is my best friend.
ZIGGY: Zig is an adorable 5 month old African Pygmy Hedgehog. Careful, he bites! I've had a difficult time bonding with him because he was quilling (the baby quills fall out and adult ones grow in) and he was grumpy cause he was hurting. It hasn't been until this month that he's learned to trust and love me. He loves to be kissed on his face. He gets so happy sometimes that he starts to purr and whistle. It is adorable. I've fallen in love with him. He is my other best friend...well, he's starting to be. Not so much when he bites me though! :O
Okay, so I've introduced myself a little, and my pets. Wanna know more? Keep reading, and through each post, you will get to know me more. I don't want to spill everything in one drawn out post. I want to keep you entertained and hopefully comment. So goodbye for now, and I'll see what I can share in my next post....
To be honest, I haven't blogged in years. I used to be a part of Live Journal, but my friends stopped commenting and I just got bored with it all. I never thought I'd abandon my LJ. But after blogging there for a good 4 years of my life, it actually felt easy to walk away from it. I never go back and read my old posts. Not sure why. Maybe I don't want to be reminded of shit that had happened or people that were in my life. There were good and bad memories there...but now I'm rambling so I'll shut up about it. To make a boring story short, this is new to me again, so I may be extremely hesistant about what I share before settling in and having active readers.
I love a good audience. Whether it'd be performing guitar or writing in here, or hopefully sharing my children's book once it's finished and published. If I don't have an audience to share with, things go dead for me. Which is one of the reasons I stopped playing guitar. But it's mainly because I've done all that I've wanted to, and lost the passion for it. So now I consider myself retired, and venturing into a new aspect of my life which is writing.
I'm babbling, aren't I. You might be wondering who Pig and Ziggy are. I mentioned them in the first paragraph of this post.
PIG: Pig is my 4 year old guinea pig. He just got done recovering from an upper respiratory infection. Poor Piggy. He is much loved. I've had him since he was a baby. I bought him at PetSmart around Christmas time. He is tri-colored (black, white and red). He loves to give kisses and is such a sweetheart. He also loves to eat. His favorite food is cucumber. He takes it out of my hand and shakes it. Gotta kill it first, y'know ;). He is my best friend.
ZIGGY: Zig is an adorable 5 month old African Pygmy Hedgehog. Careful, he bites! I've had a difficult time bonding with him because he was quilling (the baby quills fall out and adult ones grow in) and he was grumpy cause he was hurting. It hasn't been until this month that he's learned to trust and love me. He loves to be kissed on his face. He gets so happy sometimes that he starts to purr and whistle. It is adorable. I've fallen in love with him. He is my other best friend...well, he's starting to be. Not so much when he bites me though! :O
Okay, so I've introduced myself a little, and my pets. Wanna know more? Keep reading, and through each post, you will get to know me more. I don't want to spill everything in one drawn out post. I want to keep you entertained and hopefully comment. So goodbye for now, and I'll see what I can share in my next post....
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